Can't stop Crying :(

[Sheba@Chemo]

Hello I am new to the forum and have just recently lost both of my Siberian Huskies due to liver cancer. My Female Sheba was 14yrs and my Chemo was 13 they seemed to be doing fine till they both started to cough. My vet put them on antibiotics it did not help, then we did blood and exrays that showed liver Cancer and it was so advanced there was nothing that could be done. They were brother and sister they were so beautiful. I really miss them alot, I also have a little yorkie chiz who is also missing them terribly. Buddy has not been eating much at all just laying where they use to lay. Anyone have any suggestions for helping us cope with our loss. Thankyou

[21meg]

First off, I don't blame you for crying, as I am crying now also. I know how its like, because my poodle is 16 years old and it's kind of like you never know when she's just going to.. give up. :(
And it's really hard, and I am so sorry to hear this because I know Siberian Huskies are gorgeous, and just a wonder to behold and I feel so bad for you, especially your other dog. My aunt's dog recently died, it was really hard for my aunt, because she was Aunt's little baby! And their other dog was just so depressed too, always looking around for the other dog. It's so sad.
All I've got to say is let it out, and keep crying until your stomach hurts and just don't be embarassed about it. Nobody blames you. I'd be doing the same thing, only you're so tough, I wouldnt even be able to talk about it.
The only suggestions I have is try and "forget". Not necassarily whipe away all the memories, definitely dont do that. But try not frequently thinking about that. Have a good cry, then stop when your stomach is pained, and try not thinking about it. It's very hard, I know. And don't read or watch anything sad, because you'll remember the sad things.
And when you play with your other dog, just try not thinking about the other two unless you're confident you wont explode in tears. Which I know is way too tricky. Try figuring out why they got the cancer, and try preventing your other dog from getting it; that'd be so utterly horrible.
I can't imagine what you're going through, and I'm dearly sorry and will keep you in my prayers. One day you'll look back on them, smile, and just agree with yourself they were the ultimate best and you love them.
And cry happy, hot tears. Not the sad, cold tears.
Thats all I can say really, and do NOT put the blame on yourself. It's not your fault, it's not anyone's fault. It was just their time.
Well, I sound so depressing I'm probly making you cry by now, my sincerest apologies.
Blessings.
~ Meg